I realized this morning, how much suffering I cause myself by expectations. Even while out driving around to take photos, I am suffering because of my desire to get a good shot. How much I was missing! The smell of the crisp cool air. The colors of the the Fall leaves. The beautiful blue skies, and the hawks as they soar above me. Does the photo really matter?
I was overwhelmed with joy the moment I realized this, and let go of my desire. Minutes later, photo opportunities presented themselves to me. Without desire or expectation, there they were!
Then it came to me. Is this not true in all things? I think that this is the meaning of mindfulness.
This is my practice. Even as I work every day, to do so with my best efforts and no expectations of reward. The reward is in my effort. It is present every moment.